So here I am. Sharing the depths of my heart with you. This has always been something that I am fascinated by: Being my true self. Exploring. Being free. Connecting deeply with myself, others and Source. Expressing that through writings, music, art and in connecting with people all over the globe.
I do what I am guided to do. I am committed to my own heart. To making decisions based on love, not fear.
I go where I am guided to go. I help people. I am supported. I trust. And miracles unfold all the time.
Here is my story.
As a child, I was deeply fascinated by creating another reality by drawing it alive. The miracle and wonder of making my thoughts, dreams and visions visible. I loved playfully exploring drawing, writing, being with imaginary friends. So I've always been an artist, creator and free spirit. Trying to fit into a system didn't work. I was highly sensitive and felt like I am on the wrong planet. In the small town in Germany I grew up in I had no connection to people like me. I was the odd one that didn't fit in. So I tried to push through and deny my true self, just to be accepted by those around me.
I got a regular job and very sick. I kept pushing further until I got depressed. I was just about to end my life when a I heard a voice speak to me in my head to not do it and wait just a bit longer. This was the start of my intimate relationship with the voice of Spirit that would from then on guide me. Yet I was torn, going back and forth if I wanted this connection or not. I didn't want to be crazy. It was like I could not fully accept that level of unconditional love and kindness into my life just yet. I did however attract a man into my life through my music, who then married and helped me to gain back a sense of stability.
I stubbornly threw myself back into the world of achievements and degrees and studied Graphic Design, Fine Arts, then Vocal Coaching, yet internally, I was still not truly aligned to who I am.
5 years later I was guided to go to Hawaii, and got initiated as a sound healer on the island of Maui. After that I decided to start a Youtube Channel to share about my life.
I would travel around Europe and be hosted by people in exchange for sessions and concerts. It was uncomfortable to be so close with people - I feel socially awkward a lot of times - yet also very fulfilling. So the world was calling me, and I had to follow that call.
In 2016, I was finally ready to give into my American husbands wish to leave Germany behind and to move overseas for an adventure. I was scared. I would cling to the known, but deep down I knew, I had to let go, sell everything and move to this far away country I knew nothing about. I had a feeling I would meet a Maori healer who would help me on my healing journey of moving through deep trauma - and so it was.
New Zealand had a lot of magic in store. Nature was stunningly beautiful. People were friendly and casual. It was very different from my own culture and took me some time to get used to.
One day a small grey cat just appeared through the cat door in our house and decided she wanted to live with me. Her name was Cairo - and she was a reflection of my soul. I've never loved a being as much as I loved her. She would follow me around, more like a dog than like a cat. She was so affectionate and connected to me, yet had a very intense stare. I am very grateful for the way this little one has opened my heart.
When my marriage of 11 years fell apart and I knew I had to leave New Zealand, just after I had grown fond of this place, I went through months of another dark night of the soul. I faced my deepest fears as I lost everything that I held dear. My husband, my belongings, my cat, my friends, my home, my safety and my identity of who I am. This was the hardest lesson I haver had to learn in my life. Going from the beautiful spacious house on the top of the hill in Windy Wellington to panic attacks on the floor in Germany.
I learned how to sit with intense emotions. I learned to love and accept myself and to trust in who I am and what I do, despite what the world is saying. I learned to be kind to myself. I learned through navigate the jungle of distractions to return to what truly matters: Embodying love and being your true self. You are loved and you matter. No matter what happens, you do have your own answers. Trust yourself. Trust spirit.
Now when my heart guides me, I follow, because everyone else simply doesn't work anymore. If I let my ego run the show it all crashes very quickly. To the point where I know, I can only follow my own guidance. And then doors open, synchronicities happen, people and resources come into my life.
I am here to support you through music, art, writings, videos and connecting via gatherings, talks and more. If you feel guided, get in touch!
Through the energy I weave into my channeled music & art,
I invite you to remember the truth that you are,
To courageously follow your heart, your truth, your intuition.
To remember your divinity.
To express yourself creatively and live a life in flow.
To see beyond limitations, illusions, fears,
remember our true self
and anchor it here, on earth:
The embodiment of
Love & Joy