Reminders on the way of the heart

In the midst of all the chaos and the small and big details of life, ask yourself what truly matters to you. Why are you here? What do you truly want? Beyond what you should want.

What is it that your heart desires? 

Imagine sitting at your death bed. What matters now?

Imagine having one more day to live? What matters now?

Imagine being dead and looking back on your life? What do you wish you did?

And it isn’t so much about achievements, but about HOW you do life.

How much you are present. Do you tell the people you love that you love them? Do you feel alive?

Is there enough space for play in your life?

And what truly matters? Is it a career and lots of money? Or is it something else?

Caring for each other? Doing small things for others? Treating yourself? Enjoying life? Taking it less seriously?

Your heart knows the answers. Go there.

Do not get swept away by drama, by fear, by suffering….

Yes, those feelings are okay. But know, that ultimately none of this can truly harm you.

Remember who you are.

Remember you are safe.

Remember it is a dream, nothing more.

Your soul cannot be harmed.

Your body can, yes.

But not your soul.

No enemies. Nobody can harm you.

You are doing it to yourself as part of the play.

Acknowledge emotions but know…

You are safe.

It is all pointless…

Yes! And see how liberating it is.

You are here to make experiences. And you are doing that. You cannot fail as in each moment you are learning and experiencing something!

So what are you doing here on earth?

Does it matter? You choose.

Remember the little things. A hug. The smell of fresh lilac. Roses. Hot chocolate. The eyes of a child.

Dancing at night. Feeling, being alive. Supporting others, and loving yourself.

Is the flower achieving a big life goal? Or does she just bloom and that is enough?

We are obsessed with achievements and doing and yet, being is important too.

Finding balance. Resting the weary hands of the workers in the mothers lap.

We need action and we need nourishment. We need silence and sound.

Balance.

You are

A gift

To me, 

to the world

Your existence 

is already enough

You are worthy

You are

A feeling with the burning desire to break free

A secret that wants to be shared

A tale that wants to be told

A story that wants to unfold

You want to be retold

Evolve

Love 

I no longer feel like there is 

the need for a mission.

I am already enough, 

just radiating 

my unique frequency 

out into the cosmos. 

Everything crumbles 

and falls way 

and is replaced 

with a peace

that permeates everything. 

I sat on top of the hill 

watching the sunset.

Just breathing 

and wondering 

why would one be so busy 

and run through life, 

chasing things 

when what you truly enjoy 

is having time 

to watch the birds 

sing songs of sweet love 

and the trees 

tell stories of 

how it feels to be alive? 

The bigger perspective on things

There is chaos, turmoil 

At the same time there is peace, aliveness

You can go back and forth

Explore the storm in the calm 

And the calm in the storm

There are moments when I explore contrast

to the sweet nectar of life

My little world might shrink, contact

My sky might be full of clouds and storms

A call for love

I’m observing the inner landscapes

A tightness in the heart and solarplexus area

A warm red tension at the back of my head

Cold shaky hands

I name these visitors

I welcome them, let them be

Emotions, sensations come and go

No need to go into the story of what it means

No need to go into future or past

Just feel them, express them, release them

Holding loving space of what is

Being the space that holds it all

Challenges arising 

But it is okay 

from a space of love 

and being with the indecisiveness. 

Holding the question 

and the questioner in love. 

Things will clear up. 

I will know what to do 

I will be guided.

“I am with you and I love you. 

Now, I am here for you, in the midst of this. 

I love you exactly as you are. 

You are so brave, strong and beautiful. 

This too like everything else, will pass. 

This too, like everything else is the essence of life 

and you are exactly where you need to be.”

Painting your life

Sometimes, life is like a blank canvas. 

And the brush is asking you: 

What do you want to create? 

And you say: “I don’t know.” 

I am overwhelmed with the possibilities.

If everything was possible, what would I go for?

There is this vast world, 

and this can lead to an overwhelm. 

What if you start painting and realize, 

you want to paint something else? 

Keep going so you don’t “waste” paint and time?

What if I told you that you cannot mess up? 

That it is about the journey?

You paint and sometimes, 

you finish that painting. 

And then you start another one. 

Or you stop in the middle, 

put that canvas away and start fresh. 

All of this is your journey as a creator. 

It is not about painting the ultimate painting 

but following your instinct in that moment. 

It is not that serious, really. 

Open up, beautiful. Laugh. Love. Dance. 

Can you feel how blessed you are? 

You have materials to paint! 

You can always create and recreate.

So what do you want? 

Is it clear? 

Are you overwhelmed? 

Are you indecisive? 

Let it be. 

Become still. 

Connect with your heart and listen. 

What does your soul tell you?

And then you start… it starts with a knowing. 

Purple. 

A gentle stroke. 

And another. 

And then blue. 

And there you go with the flow of creation. 

You don’t need to know 

what exactly is the end point. 

Sometimes you will know 

and then paint your way there. 

And sometimes, you just follow 

your brushes own intelligence 

that is connected to the universe.

So, beautiful, let’s paint fully. 

Let’s not hold back. 

Let’s play creators. 

Cause we are creators!

When things are difficult:

Can you do just 30 more seconds?

Not another day, or week, or year? Just 30 seconds?

You might find, yes. You can.

And then another 30 seconds.

And another.

Everything true comes through the heart. 

It is love that heals. 

A loving presence deeply permeates it all 

without judgement, 

pushing anything away or trying to fix it. 

Simply love. 

Holding space is one of the biggest gifts 

we can give to another.

I see you. I acknowledge your pain. 

I acknowledge my own pain that I encounter 

by holding your space. 

Because at the core, we are one being 

connected by invisible divine threads.

By holding space for each other, 

we are being brave and facing the shadow, 

the messy, raw humanness. 

On a soul level, everything is perfect and divine, 

yet we are also human. 

Grounded spirituality encompasses it all. 

The pain, the joy, the sorrow, the beauty. 

I want to open up even more, 

feel even deeper. 

I want to be raw and real. 

I long for truth. 

It really is so simple, yet so profound. 

Everything true comes through the heart!

Waking up just beaming with love. 

I feel it inside my body. 

This love isn’t about another person. 

It is about me and loving myself. 

Me as discovering myself as a container for love. 

A tool for love. 

Bathing in love. 

This is what I have been looking for. 

This love, felt in my body, held and enjoyed.

It never was about anything out there, or anyone out there.

Nothing to do, nowhere to go. 

Nothing to prove. 

It is so simple. 

Just wake up to the love that you are 

and be love in each moment, 

in each transaction, wherever you are. 

It is all so perfect from this state, 

from this way of seeing and feeling. 

Only love is real. 

I can feel this now.

Everything here is for me. 

Created by me. 

Nothing is here to get me. 

But to support my return to God. 

Unity.

Feeling this. 

Mind. Blown.

Not reading it, but 

FEELING it.

I see you in your beauty

In your totality

I see you in your beauty

And it touches my heart

And it makes me want to break 

Open to you

Open to me

Open to us and a new way of intimacy

On the level of soul

Like it's never been before

Do you remember me?

Do you see all of me?

Do you see all of you?

Do you want to go beyond?

Beyond the veils of illusion 

And all the strange and twisted ways 

That sometimes play out?

I dare to open my heart

I dare to risk it all

I stand before you

Not knowing what you see

Not knowing what will be

And I trust in you

In a strange and strong and strange way

As I have no reason to

Says my past and says the one

Who doesn't know a thing

Come and play with me some more

In the dark I'd say but now I'm done with that

And are you done with that to?

And the light is touching us

And it enters through the wound

That heals

I had the strangest thought

I thought I was a body floating on a rock in space and time

And I had the strangest dream

I'd lay it all behind 

I'd unite with the one that I've always been

"You are tired?

Ask yourself this: 

Am I allowing myself to be filled up by the Creator?

Can I relax deeply into the moment 

knowing that all is perfectly fine, 

despite the turbulences on the outer levels? 

Can I feel this deep peace 

that is the backdrop of all experiences?

Let yourself be nourished. 

It is right there with you, 

at your fingertips, 

radiating from your heart to your body."

Another day. 

A new chance to realign 

with who you truly are.

A new day to wipe the slate clean and start fresh.

Another moment to choose love, to choose hope, beauty, strength.

To be vigilant of what thoughts are creeping in. 

You do not have to believe them.

Another day to realize you are powerful, 

beautiful and free.

You are the creator.

You are who you are looking for.

I am grateful for my partner leaving me. 

I am grateful for all the lessons. 

It taught me to root deeper into myself, 

to become intimate with my own being and God. 

All those things that aren't pleasant for the human self, 

they are honey for the soul, 

honey of transformation and growth. 

I see now that I wanted it. 

Not on the human level, but on the soul level. 

I wanted experiences. I wanted to know what it is like. 

I wanted to be a character in a movie and experience myself. 

All experiences are equal. 

I feel countless incarnations or parallel lives 

are just different experiences playing out.

At the moment, I am sitting in from of my computer, 

content with how it is. 

That I am loved by God, no matter what is going on. 

There still might be lots of lessons to learn 

but there is this joy that is untouched by any of that. 

So, different layers. 

One layer of "Ahhhh what is going on" 

and one layer of "Relax. All is well." 

Both at the same time. Quite the experience.

I am grateful.

There is another current. 

What if none of that was necessary? 

What if you didn't have to offer anything, 

heal anyone, leave no legacy behind? 

What if you were the masterpiece, 

the artwork you have been dreaming about? 

What if this moment was enough. 

What if you were enough?

Just being... one breath at a time. 

One loving heartbeat at a time. 

One moment of sadness at a time. 

One moment of joy at a time. 

Knowing who you are...

Doing from inspired action.

Resting in beingness.

How slow can you move?

With how much grace can you move?

With how much love can you do each movement?

How much movement is necessary?

With how much love can you meet each person and do each task?

Meditate as if there is no outside world because there isn’t.

Live your life in silence, slowness and build a calm foundation. 

From there, enter the world of forms and sounds.

Replenish in silence.

All Photography by Carolin Nobles