This is a more in depth-version of my musical background. It is an interesting journey to become more and more yourself, expressing that authentically and letting go of old beliefs while holding yourself with love. It has become my personal mantra: Whatever arises, love that. How often are we at war with ourselves and what is? How often do we push our way through life and end up suffering when all that could set us free is self-love and surrendering to the divine plan?
This is my journey from being a little girl singing on a swingset to becoming a musician & teacher to following my calling as an intuitive singer and soundworker. It is a journey about falling in love with who I am.
When I was a child, I loved singing. I remember those days, swinging on a swingset in our garden and my grandmother telling me I have the voice of an angel. But I was very shy and it was a long journey to overcome my fear of performing in front of other people. There was this longing to be seen, to be heard, to be loved, but at the same time a strong desire to remain hidden. Anyway, I pushed the scared part of me away and made it into my first band. I spent a few years making music like this, trying so hard to belong, only to end up with voice problems that made me quit the music world.
I spent five years on an odyssey with doctors and therapists to find out if there was a way I could sing again. Nobody had the answer. It was a very frustrating time. My voice was like a lost lover, I missed it every day and I just could not get over it, even when I told myself that it would be mature to let it go. The story could have ended here, but I am glad it didn't!
I found relief in functional voice training. For the first time it was about feeling and perceiving, about me as a whole and not just about my work as a singer.
It was about reconnecting with my body, about acceptance and letting go. My voice teacher was so kind, patient and loving and slowly I gained trust into my own voice again.
I was deeply thankful to be able to sing again I desired to dive deeper into the complex connections between voice, body, mind and spirit, so I studied Applied Voice Physiology at Lichtenberger Institute, Germany.
After many years of being a musician, I discovered intuitive singing. Just let source flow through you and channel music! All it requires is a connection to source and the ability to get out of your own way - simple yet challenging for most of us!
Intuitive Singing is always new, always fresh, always changing. There is nothing to know, nothing to pretend to be. All the masks are falling away when you dare to be truly yourself.
It is deeply healing and freeing to sing from that space of oneness, where the mind is off for a while and you feel truly present and alive, reconnecting with who you truly are.
So I guess it was only natural that I had to be in Hawaii soon ...
People say Hawaii is a special place with an intense energy - and it is! I was initiated as a soundworker there.
I still remember the scene, standing at the ocean in Maui during sunset, singing a song for the ocean and suddenly the island reveals to me that I am here on earth to sing and to bring healing with my voice. I am so deeply moved by this revelation! Two days later I find myself singing at a retreat to over 200 people! It all just happened without me planing it. After all those years of being a musician and teacher, I had also entered the path of a sound healer using music with healing intentions to balance and harmonize energies.
About half a year later, I decided to deeply surrender to life and go with the flow of the universe. I left everything behind: My home in Germany, my belongings, my family and friends, my business as a voice and harp teacher.
I left behind my ideas of how my life has to be like. Not because I wanted to but because I knew this is the next step. It was hard. One of the most challenging transitions in my life. It felt like going to my own funeral, meeting friends and places for the last time. But I deeply trusted my guidance. I knew I had to do this, I felt called to. And this is where the magic really begins!
Here I am now, living in New Zealand - and I am so glad I dared to step into the unknown which is now my new home! I receive songs more and more often. I connect with nature and sing for the ocean, since this is part of my work here as well. My intuition tells me what to do and I follow that. Miracles and synchronicities happen here on a daily basis. Sometimes, it is still challenging. Actually, a lot of times it is. I am learning, evolving, growing. I don't have all the answers. But I deeply know: This is my path and I could not imagine doing anything else.
And this is it - being yourself. Returning to this blueprint of who you are. Beyond what society wants you to be. Who are you really, wild, vulnerable, creative soul? Are you keen to find out?
Here I am. Ready to serve you and support you on your journey!